Pain and ego

This space is being filled up little by little with heretics who comment on these heresies and make them grow, enrich them, multiply them. Today I received a heresy as a comment on yesterday’s heresy, which seemed to me to be so profound and sublime as to convert itself into today’s heresy:

 “The intensity of the pain is proportional to our capacity to cling to something, to someone. What hurts us is the ego, life does not hurt.” Thank you, Patricia Botero, for such a heresy. I always thought that the intensity of pain was proportional to the intensity of the love. This reflection about pain was born the day of my most intense and infinite pain, when my grandmother – Aya – died. Today Patricia makes me think that it is not necessarily proportional to the intensity of the love, but to the “attachment,” which in many cases is a deformation of love.

Where does attachment come from? From love deformed by the ego, from egotistical, possessive, absorbing, intense and of course, super-passionate love. A love which is very easy for me to feel, and therefore fills me with attachments which do not necessarily lead to free love, to a love that is infinitely powerful, transforming and orgasmic, which celebrates the individuality and gives no foothold to the least bit of pain.

Today I understand that I need to crush this ego even more in order to be able to reach that love which frees us from burdens that generate chains so heavy that make it impossible for the soul to fly. Today I understand that there is still much work to do, beginning this very instant.  Thank you to these divine heretics that continue to cross my path!