Heresy

I am afraid

This heresy of mine is the nudist space where I show my soul to the Universe and connect to It.  Today is one of those days where I take it all off.  I need it today more than ever because today I am afraid, very afraid...

There’s a simple reason behind it: I have experienced the fragility of life up close so many times.  I have suffered the loss of people that were so important to me that my life has become a chant to the imminence of living based on essence and passion, not letting the days go by, understanding that at any time, the safety of being alive can be threatened and, of course, I have lived my life as a heretic and crazy woman, but a happy heretic, finally.

I went to the neurosurgeon today, because I’ve had a few symptoms that were making me worry.  The problem is that they made him worry enough to have me get an emergency MRI because he thinks I may have a brain aneurysm.  With a history of an uncle who died from the same cause and my background with the fragility of life, so many thoughts have gone through this head of mine from the moment in which these possibilities came about...

So today, I’m afraid.  I am not sure about my heresy today.  The first thing that comes to mind is knowing that everything is perfect, no matter what it is, and that life has me in its hands and will put me wherever I have to be, for my growth and learning.  My second heresy would be that I believe so much in the power of love, energy and connection, that it is my religion, and I am asking the Universe and you, to connect to my soul this Wednesday, February 18, 2009 at 12:30 p.m., when I have the MRI.

Last but not least, every event is a learning experience.  No matter what the result of this new adventure in my life, it has already made me grow.  Thanks for the love.

 

Niagara on a bike

It happens to all of us.  At some point in life, we feel like we are going over "the Niagara on a bicycle", like we are going down the wrong way on a one-way street, or vice versa, we feel like what we have at hand is not enough to deal with our current challenges, even the little ones, like our clothes don’t fit us...

Then the dominos start to fall, one after another, more difficulties arise, there is always more bad news, like Juan Luis Guerra says: "...don’t tell me the doctors left, don’t tell me there’s no anesthetic, don’t tell me they drank all the alcohol and the thread was sewn onto a tablecloth...". Don’t tell me, but they tell me.

The musical heresy for today is meant to find the positive effect that we need in Juan Luis’ cheerful notes, when the only thing we have is a bicycle and we are going over the Niagara Falls, and finally, the wisest part of the song, “take it easy Bobby, take it easy”.  My heresy is that no matter how great the challenge and how absurd the situation we are in, we have to keep in mind the words of the “nurse with Ben-Gay hands” and find peace in our soul, simply “knowing” that everything is going to be all right.  Because it is all right.  At the end of the day, today is perfect and so will be tomorrow.

When you least expect it, we will have the Niagara behind us, perhaps the bicycle will be there too, and we will be fully empowered by the experience, with the tools for the next Niagara that gets in our way!

Translation Note:  This heresy takes the lyrics of the song “El Niagara en Bicicleta” and interprets them into life. To fully understand it you should listen to the song and translate the lyrics.